fresh meat, a new comer!

i dont really say much normally, especially to new people. takes awhile. and i'm pretty much sick of keeping stuff to myself...and i just have the voice to make things worse haha
i'm pretty nervous since this is my first time blogging and i hate being nervous. it stops me from doing things..
two things that stops me from doing other things:
1. fear
2. laziness
i can endure laziness but i just absolutely hate being scared. i mean like who doesnt? i remember during presentation in class, these temptations almost made real: 1. running away
2. passing out
3. getting really sick
4. intorable cursing
5. suffocating
6. suffocating
7. suffocating...